green lane
fear bubbles in my
stomach
my body’s all out of
sync
i’ve never been so
alone
as this
my fate
entrusted to strangers
i sit
desolate
upon the bed
inside the room with
anaemic walls
that are closing in with every
breath
i cannot cry
i do not feel
my life is not a play in which
i have a role
i am stripped of all that once I was
because I am rotten
they tell me i’m ill
not safe to be
alone
and so they watch me
like i am entertainment
i watch me too
as i do all that i am told
with no questions
no words
i am destroyed by the
shocks
that burn
compliance
into my
brain
they leave me
vacant hazy heavy lost
dead
i wonder if i will ever escape
i wonder if i really care
A beautiful poem! “i wonder if i will ever escape/i wonder if i really care” great lines. Most of us wonder.
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Brutal poem. Good job!
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Thank you!
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Love that line as well about escaping and if I really even care. Well expressed. Sorry about your mom. How wonderful to have taken the time to take care of her.
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Thank you. I feel very lucky to have spent that time with my mum. She was an amazing lady.
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I love the ‘anemic walls’ line!
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Thanks, Elle ☺️
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