I wasn’t sure whether to share this poem because it is really personal. Like, so personal I can hardly even re-read it myself. But, you know what? I’m going to share it because it’s my story. It’s my tale to tell. I have nothing to be ashamed about. He is the one to blame. And maybe, in sharing my story, it might help others to know they are not alone and they are not to blame. Children are never to blame. So, here it is:
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I remember the holiday
in the caravan
by the sea,
just him and me
and his friend
who smelled of cigarettes
and brandy;
just like he did.
Two old men
causing terror
as I lay awake
w a i t i n g
for their game—
their assault
which they said
I deserved.
I had learned to
comply
at home
night after night, as
he took his pleasure
from my immature body
and all I could do was
s u r v i v e
make it through
and pray I could die
in the night.
But I didn’t,
in the end it was he
who never woke up,
and I was destroyed
forever.
That is a very emotive piece and your artwork covers it so well! I am going to share it as I am a survivor but have not been able to express it like that. Your words give me some comfort.
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Thank you. That’s what I hoped for. I want people to know they aren’t alone.
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Wow this is a brutal piece. I’m so sorry for your pain, but I am glad for your strength!
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Thanks, Kayla Ann. It is brutal, isn’t it. That’s why I wasn’t sure about sharing it. I’m glad I did, though. It feels like a small victory.
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I’m glad you decided to post it, I agree it is a victory. A big one.
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